Somethings have been constantly on my mind... I'm kind of stuck in this rut. and its frustrating... I have made all of these changes for the better and now I've hit the slow down point. I dont like it. I wanna keep progressing, keep learning new things about life and the Gospel and just everything, the Gospel especially. I'm learning so much even from my own scripture study, half the time i dont understand what the heck i read, but when i ask the answers come. I love it. I feel like a human sponge. I seriously think that if i could sit in Sunday School all day i would. Thats where i learn the most. <3. Its amazing how much more i appreciate the little things these days... but at the same time i feel guilty im learning all of this amazing stuff and i dont feel that im doing enough with it.. but i dont know what to do with this new knowledge.
. I just dont know what my next step should be... im scared of figuring out what the next step should be. Gah! I know what I would like my next step to be, however i'm scared. Scared that it wont work out the way i want it too, scared it could work out...
Craziness... is what it is...... im.just.scared.
2 comments:
New things always scare me....I hate braking the comfort bubble.
I wish I could learn as fast and as much as you. I think I learn most everything when I teach Sunday School.
Ok, you know I am about to break out my 2 cents right?! RIGHT?! I mean come on, you know I can't resist!
First cent...
Get a Book of Mormon manual. They are gray and come from the Church Distribution center. They also come from me because I THINK I have 2 of them.
I studied the entire Book of Mormon very thoroughly with that thing. It did more for my testimony, knowledge and spirituality than almost anything else.
Second Cent (not a big shocker): Kels...GO ON A MISSION! I will TOTALLY support you! If we need to pay for it we will. WHATEVER! You would be one of the greatest missionaries. You would get to go through the temple and you would get to share and learn MORE!
If nothing else, prepare yourself to go. Know that you would be a HUGE asset to the Lord and then do EVERYTHING, papers and all, to go. If the Lord has other plans for you, they will surface. I promise that your life will change as you make that decision. You will be working towards something for the Lord and He will use you as an instrument in His hands!
When I made the choice to serve a mission I made all of the choices that lead me in that direction. I could FEEL how pleased the Lord was with me in my life. AND it gave me focus and purpose with every single day! I met Ryan just a week before I could start filling out my papers. I knew that the Lord was blessing me for my willingness to serve, but he had other plans at that moment. My life was still blessed by the desire! I LOVED the way my life felt at that time! It was such a blessing. I know I am supposed to still serve. One day Ryan and I will! I CAN'T WAIT!
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