Well well well
since i no longer have any friends where i live anymore i am calling to my long lost friends in the blogging world to reassure me that i've made the right choice....
So I randomly got in this idea that i really wanted to get serious about life and get my life together... which ment changing my whole life basically.
So it all started with the basics... quiting drinking.... this sucks big time i'm not going to lie... i gained like ten pounds in like three weeks and have had massive migraines on top of possiblybeing the most stressed out person in the world. but that to me just makes me realize just how big of problem it was and how much worse it could have gotten...
So with quitting drinking brings me to the evil reality of my "friends" are not so much friends... I went from having all the friends in the world to spending every single nite alone without the phone ringing and my text inbox being empty... i'm a lameo. your basic loser.
as you can tell from my previous post even kim my bff of 17 years and i have gone our separate ways...
I still am working on the going to church thing... i've started reading the scriptures and went and toured the T.F. temple but i'm still kinda of being prideful and am afriad of going back to singles ward. I so badly want to be happy... and i know it'll happen after i deal with the consquences... i never thought that i'd be going through all of this completly alone... No friends around, no family to support me (thats nothing new though) i feel like i'm stuck in this limbo land and am just stuck... I'm trying really hard to not let my anxeity and depression get the best of me.. but its hard to get out of bed and put my smile on knowing that ill be going about my day completly alone...
whatev right? i'll make it through evetually.... somehow...
since i no longer have any friends where i live anymore i am calling to my long lost friends in the blogging world to reassure me that i've made the right choice....
So I randomly got in this idea that i really wanted to get serious about life and get my life together... which ment changing my whole life basically.
So it all started with the basics... quiting drinking.... this sucks big time i'm not going to lie... i gained like ten pounds in like three weeks and have had massive migraines on top of possiblybeing the most stressed out person in the world. but that to me just makes me realize just how big of problem it was and how much worse it could have gotten...
So with quitting drinking brings me to the evil reality of my "friends" are not so much friends... I went from having all the friends in the world to spending every single nite alone without the phone ringing and my text inbox being empty... i'm a lameo. your basic loser.
as you can tell from my previous post even kim my bff of 17 years and i have gone our separate ways...
I still am working on the going to church thing... i've started reading the scriptures and went and toured the T.F. temple but i'm still kinda of being prideful and am afriad of going back to singles ward. I so badly want to be happy... and i know it'll happen after i deal with the consquences... i never thought that i'd be going through all of this completly alone... No friends around, no family to support me (thats nothing new though) i feel like i'm stuck in this limbo land and am just stuck... I'm trying really hard to not let my anxeity and depression get the best of me.. but its hard to get out of bed and put my smile on knowing that ill be going about my day completly alone...
whatev right? i'll make it through evetually.... somehow...
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