Sometimes all i really should do is take a deep breath

Soooooo after having a good heart o heart with anna (my counselor) about how stressed out i am about not having control over my life, she made me realize a few things

1. I'm in more control then i realize cuz i handle situations 10 times better then i ever did a few years ago. I can handle them without having to hurt myself by either taking drugs, cutting or just beating myself up in general. Which i do admit that i totally can handle life in a relativily normal manner it usually involves running or kickboxing... thats way more normal then it used to be :)

2. BPD is something that is totally curable... theres just no instant fix for it. Its just something that takes time and trust in people and trust in myself... and i'm working on it... vs what i used to do and that was deny it.

3. Also im no longer afraid to ask for help when i need it. I also around amazing ppl who can read me like a book (not like its hard i wear my emotions on my face) and those people can tell me to knock it the hell off!

4. Most of importantly the fact that i am able to realize when i'm going manic or depression is a huge step toward my recovery.

So i basically have realized that i'll probably be okay.. and that instead of saying why me... i shuld be saying why not me... im tuffer then most ppl i know and can handle whatever the world has to throw at me! so all i have to say is Bring it on world... just freakin bring it!!

: )