Wow its been awhile!

Hey everyone,
Its been a long while since I've even thought about this blog... Actually came on here to delete my account and to just be rid of it, however i think I might keep it just a bit longer and try to be a bit more diligent about using it :)

Life... Defiantly has its ups and downs.. but i'm glad to say that it has way more ups then downs anymore. This summer has been pretty great so far, havent really done alot but between work, summer school and volunteering at the refugeecenter and doing 9th branch stuff I really can't complain.

I'm entering my last year at CSI-It overwhelms me to think of all the stuff that I have to get accomplished before my fall semster is even over at CSI...College appications, interpreting program applications, scholarship applications.... I am slightly struggling with what I really want to do and where I want to go... Ideally I'd love to go to Western Oregon University, logically I'm not sure its possible... After figthing with myself over and over again i've just decided to put it in the Lord's hands.. I probably will decide to at least apply, maybe.. we will see. It seems ridiculus to have to apply for something that is at least a year away so soon... Most of the applications ahve tobe in by December- kinda freaks me out.. okay it really freaks me out. Trust.. It's all I need to do trust...

One thing that I've started doing this summer that i absolutly love is volunteering at the refugee center, I've been working with 2 families, one from Nepal and one from Iran. both families have 1 person in that family that is deaf so i've been going to their houses and the refugee center and helpin them learn sign language and english. It has probably been one of the most rewarding experiances in my life to date. They are so appreciative and so willing to better their lives, they have the sweetest countanence about them, I dont know i just love them. and i love that i get to be a part of the whole learning experiance and can be some sort of help to them in any way possible... I just love helping ppl. esp ppl who are trying to better their lives. I'm learning what it means to truly love ppl as our Heavenly Father loves his children. I look at these refugees and i feel this oveerwhelming sense of love and just want to hug them all and tell them I love them and life is going to be better from here on out. Its crazy to feel this much love for people i dont even know.. Truly has been a testimony builder for me in remembering how much Father loves me, and you, and everyone else.

I've been doing alot of looking back on the past and been talking about with Caleb. Itblows my mind how much i have changed. And, I can't and i wont say that it has anything to do with me... I could not have been where I am now without the serious help from Father and Jesus Christ, sometimes when i think back on life and where i've been and where i am at now the overwhelming feeling of security and safety takes over me. yes, i still struggle with a couple things .and sometimes i get really overwhelmed with things i know i have to accomplish during my life here on earth but regardless of how scared i get He always sends his love, in any way shape or form. He has helped me get over some things that I never thought that I'd be able to get over, Every day Father constantly reminds me that I'm worth it, That He loves me and many other people love me, and that I can do this. I can return back Home to Him. and, for the first time in a long time I actually believe Him. I know I can do this. I KNOW I am His special daughter that He loves with all His heart. I am his princess, and somday I'll be someone's Queen and I can't wait till I get to return to Father have him give me a hug and whisper in my ear " well done my good and faithful servant".