Exhausted

Just a little update.
This past weekend has been the longest weekend of my life i think. Kim and her boyfriend ed brok up on Saturday. So shes been a little emotional, well her and ed got into it real bad and we decided that we would be moving out. so all day saturday we went house hunting... All day freakin day long... there is nothing worse then driving around aimlessly for 6 plus hours... well we found a little dueplex that would work for us (and we got a killer deal on it cuz the fitness director of the YMCA owns it and cut us some serious slack) so on sunday at 6 am we were up and packing all of our crap (and we had alot of it.) then after we packed it. we moved all of our crap and were still unpacking at 11:00 pm last nite... we still have crap to unpack today. crazy crazy... is all i can say.

Pine needles

Sooo Ed (kims boyfriend) spent the day working out in the yard and had this HUGE and i mean HUGE pile of pine needles... So we get this genius idea to jump from the truck into this pile.... the story goes as follows:





Kim"lets jump into the pile"
Kels"kim its pine needles its gunna hurt"
Kim " stop being a baby and do it... plus it wont hurt that bad"
Kels " I m not a baby i was just stating the obvious but fine lets go on three
Ed" One... Two... Three!




Ed " Where did Kim go"

Kim " OW!!!"

Kels "thought it wasnt gunna hurt big baby, Told ya so"

Kim "SHut up Kels"

Kels" I have stinkin pine needles down my pants!!!! "

Kim" ME 2" okay so i know we arent the smartest ppl around but we proabably are the happiest ppl in the magic valley! We do stupid things but one thing is guranteed, we will have a good time doin it!!

I cant describe to you how nice it is to finally be happy

Can i tell you that its nice to say that i finally love my life. I love life and everything that it has to offer. Growing up on your own terms is so much fun and such an amazing feeling. i can finally wake up in the morning and be happy that its a new day. Very rarely do i justroll over and go back to sleep to avoid life because im so stinkin excited for what the future has to hold for me. I dont know if what i'm feeling is happiness but i sure wouldnt trade it for the world. Finally i have gotten Kellsy back. My smile is here to stay never again will i let my sparkle fade. I look back and read my diaries and look at my picutures from not even six months ago and it scares me to think that i was really that close to misery. That close to really honestly giving up. It scares me that i was willing to just give me away to whatever and whoever just because i didnt care. Thanks to those for never giving up on me. for always keeping me in your prayers. It is because of you that i am here today...
So as i sit here appreciating everything that i have been given here i am going to do somthing that i havent done in a REALLY long tme: Faith is something that i've been struggling with for the past six years of my life... I couldnt trust people that i could see let alone God. And as the years went by the farther and farther away i pushed God. I thought i was the tough kid who didnt need anyone. Sure as hell didnt need my parents to survive so why did i need church? But i tried to believe, tried to understand what everyone was telling me i needed to do. Put faith in God, just pray. Nothing ever worked out the way i wanted it to. God never answered my prayers or so i thought. Now that i look back and recall on those prayers just begging him to help me make sense of it all, give me someone or something to tell me it will be alrite, just help me get thru the nite.... He always answered. And, to that i'll be forever greatful... if it werent for him i wouldnt have met Amy and Ryan, Janet and Andy, Andy Lott or even Gayla. My angels. the ones who always took me in. always loved me regadless of what i've said or done... They saw thru my tuff girl exterior and saw some one i didnt even know that existed. They saw Kellsy Kaye, the blue eyed girl who has so much potential. They saw thru the stupid boyfriends, saw thru the drug using alochol abusing girl. never gave up on me... It breaks my heart that i've abused such amazing relationships.. i feel bad for not getting "it" sooner. I feel bad for not believing the words that you said.. Sorry for that. I get it now. I swear i do. I know God lives, I KNOW that jospeh smith is a true prophet, I know that the Book of Mormon is True. And most of all I have a complete testimony in the power of prayer... after all if it wasnt for prayer who knows where i would be now a days. I love you guys, I love God, and most of all i finally Love me.

Best Friends

I have realized just how lucky i am to have a friend like kimberlee in my life... there are not very many people that i know that can be roomates, coworkers, and best friends.... we spend ALOT of time together... Shes one person that i know will support me regardless of what choice am making... She has taught me the most imporant thing i hve yet to learn. pain is inevtiable but suffering is optional. She helps me realize that its okay to be me. that its okay to cry, that i dont always have to be tough and that i dont hve to please the world. i know that regardless of where the future takes us she will always have a special place in my heart. Here are a few pics of us just having fun at our house